Humb-a-dumb-bu-dumb

Last week was surreal. if that's even spelled right.
It feels like it went by so fast. yet so slow.
I didn't do much last week.
And now my sister is gone to NY.
And i'm a little bored.
But it's ok.

Lifes pretty good.
I slept in this morning for the first time in almost 5 weeks.
And i'm NOT doing AP history right now..
Which is usually what i do on sunday nights.
I haven't touched that book in a few days.
It feels good. :)

I'm excited for break. :D

I Have

Rainbow fingernails this week.

Everyone is getting better.
I still hate seeing the people who
Didn't know him write on his poster
Or get sad or say they're going to the funeral.
Now the school cancelled school after 2nd period tomorrow.
Does this mean we have to make up another day?
Ok, that's a mean thought.
I think it's good the school is doing this.
I guess.
I mean...i wans't planning on going.
And i'm still not.
But we're being let out of school to go.
But it will be packed...
I don't really want to go.
It'd be weird, watching people cry over
Someone i never even met.

I don't know...
But...ajz is home this weekend.
Goes back mon/tues/wed
And then has easter break...
SO...

idk

<3

Um...

I didn't know Josh.
I thought i knew or had seen
All the seniors but...
I've never even seen this kid.
Alex was in my spanish class last year.
Cole...i've 'known' him since 6th grade.
He's reckelss...and he's fine.
The kid i never met is dead.
The kid in my spanish class
Could go to jail for 10+ years.
He had neck injuries too, and was
Airlifted to Iowa City.
I know it sounds mean, but i hope
This changes the one who was fine.
*He wore his seat belt*
Thank goodness.
We just had an assembly on that.
He shouldn't be so reckless now.
I hope this changes everyone.
Everyone at school has their own story
Of what happened, and what will.
I just hate the the freshmen,
Who don't know them,
Are crying. i mean BALLING.
It's dumb.
Duh, you didn't know them!

But otherwise...
The rumor can't be true.
Ajz said he could never cheat on me
Because he'd feel to bad.

I think today was controversial.
We've lost a lot of school days
But i didn't do much in any of my classes.....

Idk.

Two Encounters

Today...right before 6th period...
I was walking down the stairs...
And i veered a little left.
And *almost* hit _ _ _ _ _
Whatever. i brushed it off.
Well after school
I had to stay to do something
I missed yesterday.
And as i walked down those same stairs
I saw that in the hallway
Behind those doors,
Lurked _ _ _ _ _, her loyal BFF,
And a girl who graduated last year
Who ajz is friends with.
I got scared.
I ran back up the stairs.
"What am i doing?"
So i went down them.
And walked past them.
They stopped their conversations
Upon sight of me.
Where they talking about me?
The girl who graduated last year,
Said hi.
Now, she doesn't talk to me.
She's really outgoing,
And pretty opinionated.
I barely squeek out a 'hey' reply.
They continue to stare.
IN SILENCE.
I walk with squared shoulders
And my tummy sucked in.
I turn the corner.


They bust out laughing.
I want to cry.
Again.

Hmmm

Today on the history trip...
I had fun.
I think that's it.
I learned a lot.
Now i'm off to go read some history...
Lol i'm kinda behind in that class...
And the test is tuesday! X)

Well

I haven't been posting much this month. sorry. :P
I feel left out...
Hearing everyone who had fun at speech...
I'm glad i didn't do it because:
1) i don't have time for speech &
2) i'm never any fun when i hang around people anyway.
But anywho.
Today at lunch i learned that
_ _ _ _ _ might not hate me.
She may have thought i hated her.
That's why.
It makes sense. :D
Also...appearently there is a rumor
That ajz is cheating on me quesitonmark?
Everyone is just dumb.
Whatever.
Imma be gone all tomorrow!
AP FIELD TRIP! <3

Cuz

I just haven't met you yet!
This songs been in my head all day long.
Except..i have met 'you' [him] yet [already]
lol.......
i'm so busy....
btw...
yeah..
it sucks.
major DD.
anywhoodles...
ttyl
~

Whoops...

So..
Last month was an october month.
Lol aka only 7 posts. :P
Well...i'm also starting off
This month kinda late... [that's what she said]
Hahaha. i'm tired...
Andrew was home all last week
And left today...
I didn't cry this time...it wasn't sad.
We'd spent a week+ together...a lONG time...
And i watched him bowl today in a tourny
And it was fun. :)
Then he got a new car (his parent's old one)
And it was cool.
I don't have much to say.
Lately.
IDK....i too feel lonely alot... ( ~<3~ )
And...it doesn't matter i guess...i'm tired.
And in love...
And tired. :P
And tired of having to do AP homework all the time...
Goodnight! zzzzzz