Are fun to pick.
Alone...
With Friends...
Off the ground. :)
Rasberries
Are fun to eat.
With friends...
Alone...
Over Ice cream!
I love my orchird. :D
I <3 my friends! :P
30.6.10
R.A.W.R
Herro there.
Long time no chat. :P
Jk.
I guess it isn't as bad as i though.
I mean...when we both go back to school,
It's be best if we both concentrated on that.
And, he needs to experience college.
'I'll always be in the back of his mind'
And no, i don't feel like telling whats up yet with this. :P
CJ...i enjoy you. I'm really sad about Erie too, but i think
Your new step forward is good. :) And, i don't think it's bad.
JSYK. obviously. He's cool.
I'm in a jolly mood. idk why.
I helped out at my grandpas yesterday..
And after a while, my cousin and i started wondering around.
He has 3 Impalas (cars)
A model A AND a model T
A convertible with nice seats.
A tow truck.
A nice old car that doesn't say what it is.
2 Trucks.
And countless tractors.
And a motercycle with a side car.
I...never knew he had this many.
He's not a hoarder.
Everything has a story.
My mom remembers driving one of them.
...
...
...
That same grandpa will be gone in a year.
He has cancer..
They gave him a 4 or 5 years,
4 or 5 years ago.
It's melanoma or whatever.
Meaning it spreads.
He use to tell stories about everything.
Now, all he talks about is being alone
And dying.
He knows everything.
He has everything.
He won't talk anymore.
Except about his death and missing grandma.
Who died when i was in 4th grade.
I don't know why i'm writing all of this.
I want to go up sometime to my grandpas and have him
Tell me all about his cars.
I...just don't know what to do when he talks about his death.
He said yesterday he wished he didn't know he had it.
He wants to die like grandma.
Our cousins just got back from Arizona, and the whole family
Was at grandmas and grandpas.
The next morning, my grandma got up.
Went into the bathroom where grandpas was shaving.
Then she went back to lie down on the bed.
Just a usual morning.
My cousins from AZ were staying at my grandparents house.
My uncle is a paramedic.
Later, my grandpa finnished shaving, and went into the bedroom.
Grandmas was dead.
I was in 4th grade.
My uncle couldn't do anything.
She died after seeing all her family.
Peacefully.
Cause of death is unknown.
Grandpa wants to go like that.
Quick without warning.
He doesn't want to end up needing help.
He doesn't want to lose his mind.
He can only talk of death.
I want to change this.
If he goes, our family, which is fueding currently,
Would be destroyed.
It would be a fight for possessions.
Nobody thinks my uncles deserves teh gas station.
But he slaved his life away down there, for grandpa.
Only because my grandma asked him too.
My aunt could get written out of the will
Because she's dating an Indian.
And Grandpas racist.
It was a different time.
Things are tearing us apart.
We should be ashamed of ourself.
Stupid, silly Westendorfs.
Grandma would never have allowed this.
Long time no chat. :P
Jk.
I guess it isn't as bad as i though.
I mean...when we both go back to school,
It's be best if we both concentrated on that.
And, he needs to experience college.
'I'll always be in the back of his mind'
And no, i don't feel like telling whats up yet with this. :P
CJ...i enjoy you. I'm really sad about Erie too, but i think
Your new step forward is good. :) And, i don't think it's bad.
JSYK. obviously. He's cool.
I'm in a jolly mood. idk why.
I helped out at my grandpas yesterday..
And after a while, my cousin and i started wondering around.
He has 3 Impalas (cars)
A model A AND a model T
A convertible with nice seats.
A tow truck.
A nice old car that doesn't say what it is.
2 Trucks.
And countless tractors.
And a motercycle with a side car.
I...never knew he had this many.
He's not a hoarder.
Everything has a story.
My mom remembers driving one of them.
...
...
...
That same grandpa will be gone in a year.
He has cancer..
They gave him a 4 or 5 years,
4 or 5 years ago.
It's melanoma or whatever.
Meaning it spreads.
He use to tell stories about everything.
Now, all he talks about is being alone
And dying.
He knows everything.
He has everything.
He won't talk anymore.
Except about his death and missing grandma.
Who died when i was in 4th grade.
I don't know why i'm writing all of this.
I want to go up sometime to my grandpas and have him
Tell me all about his cars.
I...just don't know what to do when he talks about his death.
He said yesterday he wished he didn't know he had it.
He wants to die like grandma.
Our cousins just got back from Arizona, and the whole family
Was at grandmas and grandpas.
The next morning, my grandma got up.
Went into the bathroom where grandpas was shaving.
Then she went back to lie down on the bed.
Just a usual morning.
My cousins from AZ were staying at my grandparents house.
My uncle is a paramedic.
Later, my grandpa finnished shaving, and went into the bedroom.
Grandmas was dead.
I was in 4th grade.
My uncle couldn't do anything.
She died after seeing all her family.
Peacefully.
Cause of death is unknown.
Grandpa wants to go like that.
Quick without warning.
He doesn't want to end up needing help.
He doesn't want to lose his mind.
He can only talk of death.
I want to change this.
If he goes, our family, which is fueding currently,
Would be destroyed.
It would be a fight for possessions.
Nobody thinks my uncles deserves teh gas station.
But he slaved his life away down there, for grandpa.
Only because my grandma asked him too.
My aunt could get written out of the will
Because she's dating an Indian.
And Grandpas racist.
It was a different time.
Things are tearing us apart.
We should be ashamed of ourself.
Stupid, silly Westendorfs.
Grandma would never have allowed this.
28.6.10
Swim
I love Jack's Mannequin.
I'm just going to say it. :)
Some songs make me cry, some make me laugh,
And some, make me contemplate things like never before.
-You gotta swim
And swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above-
Things are strange right now and i guess we'll just have to see how they go.
I...don't understand but it's not my place.
It's his.
Red Rover was fun.
D&D was fun. :) Can't wait to play.
Yeah, yeah, my computer broke.
It's like 8 yrs old, and the sensor that tells the fan to run fell off.
And it shorted our hard drive.
So our stuff isn't reachable, because everytime someone hooks up
Another computer to it, it shuts off the OTHER computer.
We got a new computer, but it doesn't run dial-up.
SO we kinda have highspeed now. It's weird.
I'm actaully not feeling verbose today.
So maybe i'll post about it later.
Whatever...i've been kidna weird lately.
And i guess i'll just be swimming until and outcome is reached. :/
I'm just going to say it. :)
Some songs make me cry, some make me laugh,
And some, make me contemplate things like never before.
-You gotta swim
And swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above-
Things are strange right now and i guess we'll just have to see how they go.
I...don't understand but it's not my place.
It's his.
Red Rover was fun.
D&D was fun. :) Can't wait to play.
Yeah, yeah, my computer broke.
It's like 8 yrs old, and the sensor that tells the fan to run fell off.
And it shorted our hard drive.
So our stuff isn't reachable, because everytime someone hooks up
Another computer to it, it shuts off the OTHER computer.
We got a new computer, but it doesn't run dial-up.
SO we kinda have highspeed now. It's weird.
I'm actaully not feeling verbose today.
So maybe i'll post about it later.
Whatever...i've been kidna weird lately.
And i guess i'll just be swimming until and outcome is reached. :/
15.6.10
Ke$ha ≠ Lady Gaga
That's right, i went there.
Ke$ha, while amazing, is a very
BAD interpretation of Gaga on stage.
Note SNL.
Gaga=Bubble.
Ke$ha=neon tribal indian (same as her music video, i've heard)
But, i still love them both.
Ke$ha's not trying to be Gaga,
She just happened to look like a bad one.
I think i'm going to go buy the Fame: Monster
Of Gaga's soon. i think i'll go on a Wally World Spree... :D
And as far as Ke$ha, guess who gave me Tik Tok?
Nathaniel.
How long has it been since i posted about him?
He answered my prayers.
But....now i really REALLY need/want/need
"Your Love is My Drug".
Fo Realzzzzzzzzz. :P
And...CJ...i'm sorry i haven't seen you in a while.
Can we hang out soon?
I juss wasn't sure of your work schedule, that's all.
I haven't done a thing yet this summer. :P
And.........i miss you. <3
Ke$ha, while amazing, is a very
BAD interpretation of Gaga on stage.
Note SNL.
Gaga=Bubble.
Ke$ha=neon tribal indian (same as her music video, i've heard)
But, i still love them both.
Ke$ha's not trying to be Gaga,
She just happened to look like a bad one.
I think i'm going to go buy the Fame: Monster
Of Gaga's soon. i think i'll go on a Wally World Spree... :D
And as far as Ke$ha, guess who gave me Tik Tok?
Nathaniel.
How long has it been since i posted about him?
He answered my prayers.
But....now i really REALLY need/want/need
"Your Love is My Drug".
Fo Realzzzzzzzzz. :P
And...CJ...i'm sorry i haven't seen you in a while.
Can we hang out soon?
I juss wasn't sure of your work schedule, that's all.
I haven't done a thing yet this summer. :P
And.........i miss you. <3
10.6.10
DRIVING!
Today was my first day of driving
ALONE.
I went to ellas this morning and parked
WAY far away from the curb.
Like a good foot.
I didn't wanna re-do it. :P
Then off to my eye appt, where i met my mom.
After, she said i could go to Ajz's.
And appearently she said to be home at 5:30.
So when my dad called me at 6...i left for home quickly.
I got home and then changed for Muni band and off i went.
It was fun.
And i even got out of the parking space and made it home safely.
I think i'm an ok driving.'
Sometimes my judgements off, but usually it's ones like
"I could have made it"
NOT
"Can i make it?"
Bahaha. I jammed out to Ke$ha TWICE today. :D
ps: i like driving now. xD
ALONE.
I went to ellas this morning and parked
WAY far away from the curb.
Like a good foot.
I didn't wanna re-do it. :P
Then off to my eye appt, where i met my mom.
After, she said i could go to Ajz's.
And appearently she said to be home at 5:30.
So when my dad called me at 6...i left for home quickly.
I got home and then changed for Muni band and off i went.
It was fun.
And i even got out of the parking space and made it home safely.
I think i'm an ok driving.'
Sometimes my judgements off, but usually it's ones like
"I could have made it"
NOT
"Can i make it?"
Bahaha. I jammed out to Ke$ha TWICE today. :D
ps: i like driving now. xD
8.6.10
Sweet 16
The party was pretty cool.
It made up for the bad bday i had.
I think i am in love with temparary tattoos now.
Just saying.
And sammy D's pool party was really fun last week too.
And now it's summer.
And i just slept until noon for the second time in my life.
And i feel funny. This summer is going to suck...i can tell.
My bff is gone for half of it.
My sister is gone for almsot all of it,
Then gone for good at college.
My bf will be working multiple times a day...
And my other bff will be working a lot too.
And then there's me.
I'll be detasseling.
With no friends.
Leaving Waverly for around 10-12 hours everyday.
Starting with leaving at 5.
And being hot.
And not having and friends.
This summer will suck.
Then there's church camp, cutting into detasseling time.
So less money there.
And none of the aweosme people, except for Hannah E, will be back,
And that makes me really sad..... :(
Time to make new friends? i think so.
It made up for the bad bday i had.
I think i am in love with temparary tattoos now.
Just saying.
And sammy D's pool party was really fun last week too.
And now it's summer.
And i just slept until noon for the second time in my life.
And i feel funny. This summer is going to suck...i can tell.
My bff is gone for half of it.
My sister is gone for almsot all of it,
Then gone for good at college.
My bf will be working multiple times a day...
And my other bff will be working a lot too.
And then there's me.
I'll be detasseling.
With no friends.
Leaving Waverly for around 10-12 hours everyday.
Starting with leaving at 5.
And being hot.
And not having and friends.
This summer will suck.
Then there's church camp, cutting into detasseling time.
So less money there.
And none of the aweosme people, except for Hannah E, will be back,
And that makes me really sad..... :(
Time to make new friends? i think so.
2.6.10
:P
May was a fail at posting.
I was busy..
My 16 Bday was ok.
I'd rather not talk about it.
I'm really tired so i'm really
EMOTIONAL.
And that made my day not-so-great. :P
I'll talk more later! <3
I was busy..
My 16 Bday was ok.
I'd rather not talk about it.
I'm really tired so i'm really
EMOTIONAL.
And that made my day not-so-great. :P
I'll talk more later! <3
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