I realized something the other day.
I have never gotten 1st place for anything in my life.
Just let that sink in.
It hurts.
I'm always sub par to everyone.
I hate it.
I wish i was smarter.
Or just smart enough.
Or talented at SOMETHING.
But i'm not.
I never have been the best.
I haven't even been good enough.
I just find it strange.
Maybe someday, thought, i'll win something.
23.7.11
Well.
I leave for camp tomorrow.
I'll be back the 29th. :)
But i have phone and computer so no worries.
WIYLDE. 4th year.
As far as boys.
I give up on him.
He is a jerk.
Nuff said.
His loss, right?
Also, summer is ending,
So call me to hang out!
<3
I'll be back the 29th. :)
But i have phone and computer so no worries.
WIYLDE. 4th year.
As far as boys.
I give up on him.
He is a jerk.
Nuff said.
His loss, right?
Also, summer is ending,
So call me to hang out!
<3
18.7.11
2 weeks ago.
It has been about two weeks since i've last posted.
The visitation was nice.
I spent most of my time with my family and cousins.
I got to talk to some cousins i don't usually.
Thanks for coming to the visitation, btw.
It was nice to actally know a face, haha.
The funeral was hard.
My Grandma's name was Grace.
My granpa requested we sing Amazing Grace at his funeral.
It is the only time i cried.
"And Grace will lead you home".
There was more family time in the days that followed.
Then i think for about i week i just stayed in my house and read.
I finished all the Harry Potter books and went to the premier Friday.
It was good, i went again yesterday.
I guess i haven't been doing anything for a long time.
Herritage days was this weekend.
That was a pretty good time.
I don't know.
I always feel like i have so much to write,
But when i get here i never remember...
The visitation was nice.
I spent most of my time with my family and cousins.
I got to talk to some cousins i don't usually.
Thanks for coming to the visitation, btw.
It was nice to actally know a face, haha.
The funeral was hard.
My Grandma's name was Grace.
My granpa requested we sing Amazing Grace at his funeral.
It is the only time i cried.
"And Grace will lead you home".
There was more family time in the days that followed.
Then i think for about i week i just stayed in my house and read.
I finished all the Harry Potter books and went to the premier Friday.
It was good, i went again yesterday.
I guess i haven't been doing anything for a long time.
Herritage days was this weekend.
That was a pretty good time.
I don't know.
I always feel like i have so much to write,
But when i get here i never remember...
4.7.11
So much to say..
Well, i guess i should start with friday.
It seems so far away now...
My grandpa was doing really good last week,
He was losing his voice, but he was feeling ok.
He was in a little bit of pain, but friday it was bad.
I thought he was ok until i got a call around 7.
I was to come up to the house because my
11 year old cousin was too young to be up there.
Apparently, my grandpa was going 14 seconds before breathing,
And he was sweating and wasn't responding.
I sort of 'woke up' after i took my cousin to a park,
But i took her home around 9 anyway and went back up to
My grandpas house.
My sister finally got home and got to see him.
He was really weak and kept slipping into sleep midsentence.
Kim and i said goodbye and went home.
I slept very hard apparently that night because i didn't hear
The phone at 1.
My grandpa, the smartest and most talented man i know,
Passed away a little before 1 Saturday morning.
Apparently my parents left and went to the house
And came home around three.
The visitation is tomorrow and the funeral is wednesday.
I miss him, but i am not too sad because he went quietly
And was surrounded by his children.
He is now with the woman he never stopped loving.
To transition,
Saturday (after hearing the news)
I still went down to the 80/35 concert in des moines.
I got to see Edward Sharpe and the Megnetic Zeros!
It was an amazing day.
I watched a hardcore band before Edward Sharpe, and
We fought our way THROUGH THE MOSH PIT to the front
To see Edward Sharpe.
I got a spot on the fence, i was FRONT ROW!
Even some photographers took pics of me!
( http://desmoines.metromix.com/content_image/full/2704312/560/370 )
Alex Ebert came and jumped onto the fence by me and i
TOUCHED HIM! MULTIPLE TIMES! <3333333
Then, after an AMAZING CONCERT
We were walking on a street in Des Moines, and met
JADE CASTRINOS of the band, and i hugged her!
It was an amazing day.
Easily the best day of my life so far. :)
Between that and family time, my weekend has been full.
I was glad i was able to not think about my grandpa too much
At the concert. He wouldn't have wanted me to miss it for him.
I am doing ok actaully.
I just thought you all would like to know why i have been
At home the past few days...
I am going to the fireworks tonight.
It isnt' that i don't love my grandpa,
Milton Carl Westendorf was an amazing man.
But he wouldn't have wanted me to stop my life for him.
I've cried over it, but life is really busy right now.
I hope everyone is having a safe and wonderful 4th of July.
Also, boys are dumb, but they don't matter anyway, right?
It seems so far away now...
My grandpa was doing really good last week,
He was losing his voice, but he was feeling ok.
He was in a little bit of pain, but friday it was bad.
I thought he was ok until i got a call around 7.
I was to come up to the house because my
11 year old cousin was too young to be up there.
Apparently, my grandpa was going 14 seconds before breathing,
And he was sweating and wasn't responding.
I sort of 'woke up' after i took my cousin to a park,
But i took her home around 9 anyway and went back up to
My grandpas house.
My sister finally got home and got to see him.
He was really weak and kept slipping into sleep midsentence.
Kim and i said goodbye and went home.
I slept very hard apparently that night because i didn't hear
The phone at 1.
My grandpa, the smartest and most talented man i know,
Passed away a little before 1 Saturday morning.
Apparently my parents left and went to the house
And came home around three.
The visitation is tomorrow and the funeral is wednesday.
I miss him, but i am not too sad because he went quietly
And was surrounded by his children.
He is now with the woman he never stopped loving.
To transition,
Saturday (after hearing the news)
I still went down to the 80/35 concert in des moines.
I got to see Edward Sharpe and the Megnetic Zeros!
It was an amazing day.
I watched a hardcore band before Edward Sharpe, and
We fought our way THROUGH THE MOSH PIT to the front
To see Edward Sharpe.
I got a spot on the fence, i was FRONT ROW!
Even some photographers took pics of me!
( http://desmoines.metromix.com/content_image/full/2704312/560/370 )
Alex Ebert came and jumped onto the fence by me and i
TOUCHED HIM! MULTIPLE TIMES! <3333333
Then, after an AMAZING CONCERT
We were walking on a street in Des Moines, and met
JADE CASTRINOS of the band, and i hugged her!
It was an amazing day.
Easily the best day of my life so far. :)
Between that and family time, my weekend has been full.
I was glad i was able to not think about my grandpa too much
At the concert. He wouldn't have wanted me to miss it for him.
I am doing ok actaully.
I just thought you all would like to know why i have been
At home the past few days...
I am going to the fireworks tonight.
It isnt' that i don't love my grandpa,
Milton Carl Westendorf was an amazing man.
But he wouldn't have wanted me to stop my life for him.
I've cried over it, but life is really busy right now.
I hope everyone is having a safe and wonderful 4th of July.
Also, boys are dumb, but they don't matter anyway, right?
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