It isn't that i don't like you.
I like you.
We just aren't hanging out.
We just got seperated, but if we were to hang out, nothing really would have changed between us.
I might look like all i do is hang out with people.
But i really don't like people.
I've saddly grown annoyed with a lot of people and i'm just ready to graduate.
I spend a lot of time doing homework.
I spend a lot of time with my boyfriend.
That's my life right now.
We should really hang out this summer. :)
Just...thought i'd update this thing.
Life is life.
Headed to Central Sunday to spend the night. :D
If you want to hang out, just call me, ok?
I'm not going to turn you down.
We're still friends.
29.3.12
9.2.12
Recently.
I got asked to go to a stereotypical 'popular' party for the superbowl this year. People pick me for doing homecoming/winterfest assembly activities. People, like me?
I know everyone is prolly mad at me for saying it, but it's kinda nice.
I didn't even go to the party, but it was nice.
I mean, can't i be a stereotypical high school girl who gets excited about these things? I was excited.
I don't quite know if there is much new with me.
It'd be cool if we could hang out more, the other day was nice :)
And, yeah.
Bowling's coming to a close.
My last meet it tomorrow..... :'(
But, hopefully it's fun. :)
I know everyone is prolly mad at me for saying it, but it's kinda nice.
I didn't even go to the party, but it was nice.
I mean, can't i be a stereotypical high school girl who gets excited about these things? I was excited.
I don't quite know if there is much new with me.
It'd be cool if we could hang out more, the other day was nice :)
And, yeah.
Bowling's coming to a close.
My last meet it tomorrow..... :'(
But, hopefully it's fun. :)
18.1.12
18.12.11
:)
Tonight was an amazing night.
I went on a double date, and he paid.
Granted, i had only met this guy maybe 5 times im my life before tonight. We went to Texas Roadhouse, not the cheapest place around. It was great. We had to go home though because the other girl's curfew was up soon, and she lived in Tripoli like the two boys, so they droped me off at home. I didn't want to stay at home, and i didn't care if i had to hang out with this guy alone, i liked him. They ended up whipping a u turn in bremer and coming back to get me. We went to his house and i met his mom, and then we went to the bowling alley in Tripoli, just him and i, and everyone know him. It's a cute town like that. I had such a good time, and then he drove me all the way back to waverly, and walked me to my door and gave me a hug.
That's just the basics of tonight.
I just wanted to write it all down before i forgot everything.
I'm so happy.
I doubt i'll get any sleep tonight.
I'm ok with that... :)
I went on a double date, and he paid.
Granted, i had only met this guy maybe 5 times im my life before tonight. We went to Texas Roadhouse, not the cheapest place around. It was great. We had to go home though because the other girl's curfew was up soon, and she lived in Tripoli like the two boys, so they droped me off at home. I didn't want to stay at home, and i didn't care if i had to hang out with this guy alone, i liked him. They ended up whipping a u turn in bremer and coming back to get me. We went to his house and i met his mom, and then we went to the bowling alley in Tripoli, just him and i, and everyone know him. It's a cute town like that. I had such a good time, and then he drove me all the way back to waverly, and walked me to my door and gave me a hug.
That's just the basics of tonight.
I just wanted to write it all down before i forgot everything.
I'm so happy.
I doubt i'll get any sleep tonight.
I'm ok with that... :)
28.11.11
Hi, i'm Carolyn.
I know.
It's been over a month.
There are times in life when i want to blog,
But i get too caught up in life to do it.
I don't like big Alex.
I don't like little Alex.
I'm finally over Andy.
Although, let's be real, he's the biggest jerk i ever met.
And that is saying a LOT. ;)
I don't like Andrew.
I don't like Drew.
Life is so nice.
But, the only people i hang out with anymore are
Sarah, Cassie, Bethany, and Megan.
But i'm ok with that. :)
I met a guy Friday night...
I don't have his number,
But he might ask one of my friends for mine.
At least, i hope he does.
I mean, it's really nice to dream that someone out there thinks about me.
And, that's just it.
I like to dream.
I like randomly smiling in class thinking about him.
I like thinking how i might get to see him again someday.
It just, makes me smile.
And, let's be real.
I love to smile.
:)
It's been over a month.
There are times in life when i want to blog,
But i get too caught up in life to do it.
I don't like big Alex.
I don't like little Alex.
I'm finally over Andy.
Although, let's be real, he's the biggest jerk i ever met.
And that is saying a LOT. ;)
I don't like Andrew.
I don't like Drew.
Life is so nice.
But, the only people i hang out with anymore are
Sarah, Cassie, Bethany, and Megan.
But i'm ok with that. :)
I met a guy Friday night...
I don't have his number,
But he might ask one of my friends for mine.
At least, i hope he does.
I mean, it's really nice to dream that someone out there thinks about me.
And, that's just it.
I like to dream.
I like randomly smiling in class thinking about him.
I like thinking how i might get to see him again someday.
It just, makes me smile.
And, let's be real.
I love to smile.
:)
19.10.11
Catch up.
It has been a while.
I guess i found people to tell my problems to,
Not just a website.
But none-the-less.
My best friends sister likes Alex.
So i made sure he and i were just friends,
So she can be sure he doesn't like me anymore.
The only problem is that, once i did that,
I started liking him again.
But i'm sure it is only because i can't have him,
So i won't act on it.
I don't need a guy.
So there. :)
I can't stand a lot of people in school anymore.
Except for a few, almost everyone makes me mad.
I can't wait to go to college.
I want new friends.
But, obviously, i'll keep some of the old. :)
Also. I gave blood today.
I had 47% iron, and that was cool.
You only need 38% to give. :D
And then, they said i had amazaing viens! :)
I felt SO GOOD after i did it, i hope to do it again.
Although i felt a little tired after, but i don't mind.
Life is life, it is nice, it has downfalls, but i like it.
I know nobody even uses blogger anymore, but that is ok with me.
If you read this, then you know i love you. <3
Have a wonderful day.
I guess i found people to tell my problems to,
Not just a website.
But none-the-less.
My best friends sister likes Alex.
So i made sure he and i were just friends,
So she can be sure he doesn't like me anymore.
The only problem is that, once i did that,
I started liking him again.
But i'm sure it is only because i can't have him,
So i won't act on it.
I don't need a guy.
So there. :)
I can't stand a lot of people in school anymore.
Except for a few, almost everyone makes me mad.
I can't wait to go to college.
I want new friends.
But, obviously, i'll keep some of the old. :)
Also. I gave blood today.
I had 47% iron, and that was cool.
You only need 38% to give. :D
And then, they said i had amazaing viens! :)
I felt SO GOOD after i did it, i hope to do it again.
Although i felt a little tired after, but i don't mind.
Life is life, it is nice, it has downfalls, but i like it.
I know nobody even uses blogger anymore, but that is ok with me.
If you read this, then you know i love you. <3
Have a wonderful day.
25.9.11
1 year.
I've been single for 1 year today.
September 25th.
But, last year it was on a Saturday.
And i remember Set Crew.
You were there for me when i came in, crying.
You were there for me through everything.
I cried a little yesterday.
It's so unreal.
A whole year alone?
And i'm still not over him.
I haven't kissed anyone in a year.
I miss everything.
Yesterday sucked.
But today was better.
I woke up and FINALLY
Deleted all the texts i had in my phone from Andy.
There is no hope for that anymore.
He obviously doesn't like me anymore.
And, Andrew texted me today.
About bowling.
I doubt he realized what today was.
He was never one for remembering dates.
It's been a year.
A good enough year.
A hard year.
I want to move on.
Time i have.
I just thought i'd let everyone know.
This is a monumentous weekend for me.
But, that's just me.
It's just some numbers.
365 days, so what?
I can hardly believe it.
I don't know how i feel.
Just amazed 1 year went by so fast.
So many memories.
So many things changed.
I know i'm happy, but for some reason
I keep wanting to cry.
September 25th.
But, last year it was on a Saturday.
And i remember Set Crew.
You were there for me when i came in, crying.
You were there for me through everything.
I cried a little yesterday.
It's so unreal.
A whole year alone?
And i'm still not over him.
I haven't kissed anyone in a year.
I miss everything.
Yesterday sucked.
But today was better.
I woke up and FINALLY
Deleted all the texts i had in my phone from Andy.
There is no hope for that anymore.
He obviously doesn't like me anymore.
And, Andrew texted me today.
About bowling.
I doubt he realized what today was.
He was never one for remembering dates.
It's been a year.
A good enough year.
A hard year.
I want to move on.
Time i have.
I just thought i'd let everyone know.
This is a monumentous weekend for me.
But, that's just me.
It's just some numbers.
365 days, so what?
I can hardly believe it.
I don't know how i feel.
Just amazed 1 year went by so fast.
So many memories.
So many things changed.
I know i'm happy, but for some reason
I keep wanting to cry.
17.9.11
Why hello.
I mis her. i don't know.
I just hit me.
Like, 10 seconds ago.
I miss my sister.
She hates coming home from college,
And never wants us to come down to see her.
I haven't spent more than two months with here since
She was in high school.
I don't really have a sister.
I have been on my own so much.
And now, my friends never want to hang out.
For the past two saturdays, i've hung out with my parents.
And even they are reluctant to bring me into a bar
Just so i can have food and social time.
They hand out with their friends more than i do.
What's wrong with me?
I just wanna get out of here.
Nobody cares anymore.
I sat in my house all day today,
And our heater is broken so it was 60 degrees.
And i just felt like crying all day.
I was so alone.
Even the dog didn't want me.
Ugh.
I was so cold i couldn't do homework.
I sat under a blanket all day wishing i had a life.
I feel so lost lately.
The weekend rolls around and i'm the lamest kid ever.
And i'm a senior in high school.
So much for the best part of my life...
But on the bright side,
Mail from 3 college friends is fabulous. :)
And in other words, i'm a push over.
My freshmen called me one day and asked for a ride home.
So i drove him home.
He uses me for rides,
He is probably the only person to be able to do that ever,
And he doesn't even know how special he is to me.
I'm such a creep.
Ugh.
Life...
Yeah.
I just hit me.
Like, 10 seconds ago.
I miss my sister.
She hates coming home from college,
And never wants us to come down to see her.
I haven't spent more than two months with here since
She was in high school.
I don't really have a sister.
I have been on my own so much.
And now, my friends never want to hang out.
For the past two saturdays, i've hung out with my parents.
And even they are reluctant to bring me into a bar
Just so i can have food and social time.
They hand out with their friends more than i do.
What's wrong with me?
I just wanna get out of here.
Nobody cares anymore.
I sat in my house all day today,
And our heater is broken so it was 60 degrees.
And i just felt like crying all day.
I was so alone.
Even the dog didn't want me.
Ugh.
I was so cold i couldn't do homework.
I sat under a blanket all day wishing i had a life.
I feel so lost lately.
The weekend rolls around and i'm the lamest kid ever.
And i'm a senior in high school.
So much for the best part of my life...
But on the bright side,
Mail from 3 college friends is fabulous. :)
And in other words, i'm a push over.
My freshmen called me one day and asked for a ride home.
So i drove him home.
He uses me for rides,
He is probably the only person to be able to do that ever,
And he doesn't even know how special he is to me.
I'm such a creep.
Ugh.
Life...
Yeah.
11.9.11
So much to say.
Well, i guess it was last thursday morning,
Drew told me how he felt, and i just told him
I didn't want to date anyone. But, it sucked.
"I've liked you for a really, really long time."
"I think you're a super awesome person."
"Spending the last month of my life with you has
Been the best month of my life."
"Being with you is better than seeing Edward Sharpe live."
"I think you're super cute."
"I can't stop thinking about you."
...and so on.
He still tries to act like nothing happened,
But i wish he would leave me alone for a while.
It is just too weird he still talks to me a lot.
I just don't want that right now. That's all.
-----
Also. I've been really busy lately.
It isn't fun.
School just started, shouldn't it wait a while
BEFORE it kills me? Guess not...
-----
Life is just crazy.
Being a senior is crazy.
Going to the football game and only hearing
My class mates names being called over the loud speaker.
Kids my age are doing that football thing, and winning.
It is crazy.
I mean, i myself am a section leader!
And taking a college class! Ahh!
And i don't know why but i feel weird lately.
I think i might actaully want to go to college.
I'm taking a visit to central and simpson soon this month.
I just want to get away from Waverly.
Everything is bugging me about it.
I just want something new. Something exciting and scary.
I want the decisions to be up to me for once.
Plus, ever since my older friends went to college,
Life just hasn't been the same.
I mean, i don't wanna be that needy freaky friend,
And you've only been gone for a week,
But i really miss you.
And i don't know why.
I just find myself getting sad sometimes because i miss you so much.
It's pretty strange.
I hope you got all 3 of my letters.
I'll write more soon.
I just feel different.
I think i'm ready for change.
Drew told me how he felt, and i just told him
I didn't want to date anyone. But, it sucked.
"I've liked you for a really, really long time."
"I think you're a super awesome person."
"Spending the last month of my life with you has
Been the best month of my life."
"Being with you is better than seeing Edward Sharpe live."
"I think you're super cute."
"I can't stop thinking about you."
...and so on.
He still tries to act like nothing happened,
But i wish he would leave me alone for a while.
It is just too weird he still talks to me a lot.
I just don't want that right now. That's all.
-----
Also. I've been really busy lately.
It isn't fun.
School just started, shouldn't it wait a while
BEFORE it kills me? Guess not...
-----
Life is just crazy.
Being a senior is crazy.
Going to the football game and only hearing
My class mates names being called over the loud speaker.
Kids my age are doing that football thing, and winning.
It is crazy.
I mean, i myself am a section leader!
And taking a college class! Ahh!
And i don't know why but i feel weird lately.
I think i might actaully want to go to college.
I'm taking a visit to central and simpson soon this month.
I just want to get away from Waverly.
Everything is bugging me about it.
I just want something new. Something exciting and scary.
I want the decisions to be up to me for once.
Plus, ever since my older friends went to college,
Life just hasn't been the same.
I mean, i don't wanna be that needy freaky friend,
And you've only been gone for a week,
But i really miss you.
And i don't know why.
I just find myself getting sad sometimes because i miss you so much.
It's pretty strange.
I hope you got all 3 of my letters.
I'll write more soon.
I just feel different.
I think i'm ready for change.
27.8.11
And i want you to know.
When you go to bed worrying over something,
And then you wake up and it hits you again,
It seems worse, it seems really bad.
I'm not sitting in my house freaking out.
I'm being me.
Today, i listend to over two hours of DUBSTEP
Online, and i don't care if it makes me a hipster/poser.
I love it. ^.^
I'll have to man up and tell drew, but that's life.
I'm not running away to college, either.
It just seems new and exciting.
New people.
Not the same since kindergarten! :)
And for everyone in/heading to college,
You'll do great.
I'll still be here being your friend in Wave town you can
Come back and see whenever. :) :) :) :)
Life is good.
Things happen, but i shouldn't dwell on them.
I have so much going for me right now,
I should stop being a whinny teenager. ;)
I really hope everyone is having a good day!
It is beautiful outside. Enjoy it. <3
And then you wake up and it hits you again,
It seems worse, it seems really bad.
I'm not sitting in my house freaking out.
I'm being me.
Today, i listend to over two hours of DUBSTEP
Online, and i don't care if it makes me a hipster/poser.
I love it. ^.^
I'll have to man up and tell drew, but that's life.
I'm not running away to college, either.
It just seems new and exciting.
New people.
Not the same since kindergarten! :)
And for everyone in/heading to college,
You'll do great.
I'll still be here being your friend in Wave town you can
Come back and see whenever. :) :) :) :)
Life is good.
Things happen, but i shouldn't dwell on them.
I have so much going for me right now,
I should stop being a whinny teenager. ;)
I really hope everyone is having a good day!
It is beautiful outside. Enjoy it. <3
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