Life As We Know It.

I sit sometimes.

And i wonder....

Will i see you again?

After you start school

At William Penn University.

I want to cry everynight.

But i always think of ways to not.

Last night, when i was sitting in your car

We were at my house, nobody was home,

Just sitting and talking.

And i hugged you.

And my eyes felt full

Of tears of sadness

For you to leave me.

But i didn't cry.

I went inside and watched SNL.

And you called to make sure i was alright.

Because i freaked out in your car,

I thought i heard a noise.

I said i was ok.

Then, i did what i always do,

When the air conditioning is on.

I sat infront of the vent

In the toy room

Because, finally.

I was alone and the air was on.

And i talked to it.

It seems dumb and silly and strange.

He listens.

I named him George before"George" was...

that thing that happens.

And i started to cry.

Small, soft tears.

And i started to name all the reason

That i wouldn't cry.

Things like:

How i use to hate you,

And how i now love you,

And all the things we've done.

And i told myself over and over

That saying

[i forgot who said it though...]

"Don't Cry Because It's Over,

Smile Because It Happened."

And i did.

They were tears of JOY.

I Love Him.

And, it indeed,

will change.

My life, as i know it,

Will be thrown upside down

In one week. =/.

But...i can call him when needed.

There is facebook for a reason,

And he'll be back on some weekends.

So....all in all

He needs to go.

I know this.

And, it's going to be ok.

And, if he were to break up with me,

I would be glad it happened

Than never know

This is my first serious relationship. :)

And i know i can't even spend everday

With him before he goes

Because of life.

I'm Sorry.

But, it's going to be ok.

That is, infact, why we have this inportant things

I like to call:

F R I E N D S .

PS: i love them too. :D