A Racing Heart?

So...

What happened?

Yesterday...

I was getting dressed

Getting ready to march.

And, like i knew would happen,

You came to the band room.

How long HAS it been

Since i've seen your face?

Since i've hugged you?

Since i've freaked out over you very

Presence?

You walked in.

I looked up.

My heart started racing.

Wait.

I love someone else.

OK, ok, i use to love you, it's true,

But, i don't anymore.

I haven't for a long time.

Why did i get nervous?

Why?

Why?

Why?

I don't love you anymore.

So why did i sit there

Wanting to talk to you?

I. Can't.

No.

And i do love my boyfriend.

He's the reason i stopped liking

You.

So...why?

And, something else happened last night.

During Itty Bitty,

You talked to her.

And, then i walked right past you two

To put away my clarinet.

And when i was done, i called you.

You ignored it.

But, turns out, you weren't still talking

To her, so it's ok.

Then, we were walking to your car.

It was dark.

And someone drove past and started to

Pound on the window of the car.

I assumed i knew the person...

But no.

It was her.

He ran over the the car and started talker to her.

I stayed where i was.

10 feet away is good for me.

Then, from nowhere

She says:

"Hey, Carolyn"

And i was like...woah.

She said it in a

Sincere, cute, smiley voice.

And when she left, she waved.

At both of us.

And said goodbye.

To both of us.

I don't care if she didn't mean it.

I'm going to smile at her from now on

Instead of avoiding her in the halls.

And, i can already tell,

This will be a fun year.

Maybe she doesn't hate me.

Maybe she has not reason to talk to me.

Or no reason to know me.

Or, tension is awkward.

But, i can take this and run.

We won't be BFFs,

But, maybe, just maybe,

We can be mutual.

And, this, makes me smile.