Life is Not Swell

So.

Today was...

Painful.

Interesting.

Annoying.

Crushing.

Aggravating.

Saddening.

Maddening.

And a lot more

Under those subjects.

YEAH.

And...

Wow.

My friends...

YEAH.

One, they are great.

Two, they are depressive.

Three, they are annoying.

All of those sometimes.

But...when they hurt me...

Well let me start like this.

HER. _ _ _ _ _.

YEAH.

Her again.

Another of my friends

Became friends with her.

Seemingly FLAUNTING

Their friendship to me.

"Look at this that your BEST FRIEND did!"

What hurts?

This:

"Well, if i can't talk to you,

I may as well talk to your enemy!"

Ouch.

Eff this.

The last friend that chose her...

Almost dropped out of school

When she pissed him off.

Why does everyone like her so?

It's not my fault i'm not her!

But sometimes...

Seeing her makes me want to

Kill myself.

I mean,

If everyone,

And i mean EVERYONE

Likes her more,

Then i don't matter.

Suicide isn't the answer,

And i know it.

But, she hurts me so much.

I love Him.

And the new _ _ _ _ _ friend

Is a good man.

But, don't be suprised if i don't

Talk to you anymore.

If i ignore you,

Like i ignore her.

It's nothing personal.

Ok, it is.

If you want to play this way...

I mean, at least don't

Talk to ME about HER!

Just let me be,

Or there won't be a ME

To mess with anymore.