Interesting...

It hasen't even been that long,
And the guys have assended.
I mean, i always thought i wasn't pretty
Or nice, or wanted by guys
Because they never made advancements.
I guess that's because i was taken.
Already, one is pushing for being closer,
And two or three others are talking to me
More and more and more and more.
I mean, flattering yes, but
I need time.
I still miss him.
I haven't talked to him since it happened.
It really, really hurts.
I love him so much still.
We agreed it was mutualy, i guess.
And we're still friends, i saw him
Text someone that because he didn't know
I was also there.
He said we agreed we were both busy, and that we were
'Of course' still friends.
I wanna call him so bad, but i don't know if it's ok to yet.
Not like a stupid rule, but i wanna give some time.
I am almost second guessing this stuff.
I mean, it should be ok if i can just talk to you.
I wish guys would stop.
I can't handle all this right now.
BJS is nice and i'd like to get to know him,
But today i realized that him living in Illinois
Is a problem for sure come summer.
Not that i'm looking.
Right now, i just wanna cry.
But i have to write an essay....
And that's what's ineresting.