Ok, here's what's up.

Ok.
Friday night UNI came to wsr to play for band.
I met a male clarinetist name Brandon. (BJS)
We talked and he was really nice.
It got me thinking that i shouldn't have to feel bad because i talk to guys just because i've always dated Ajz.
I'm a jr/sr soon and i can't let these times slip away, i need to be able to do things now, right?
Things on my own, not skewed because of a bf.
So, then saturday wsr went to UNI.
I got to talk more to him.
But KS told me BJS had a thing for me and wanted to see me again.
But ~<3~ said he was a little bit of a man-whore.
Then i guess KS told me he was worried for me and he told BJS to back off.
But, when i got home i sent BJS a facebook message
(I friended him friday night) and we've been talking all day.
Which is another story.
But mainly, i've decided i want to take a break with Ajz
Because he will be busy with with bowling in 2 weeks,
And i should be able to be free, you know?
It might seem like i'm doing it for BJS, but i'm not.
I've been thinking this in the back of my head for a while...
Whenever i talk to a guy. Whenever my tummy flips..
Do i really wanna go through with it?
I do. i mean, AJZ and i have talked about it before,
And we'll both be really busy this year.
I want him to experience college and not come home all the time
And i wanna be able to talk to guys.
Maybe even guys like BJS.

This was BJS's status today : PARENTS SURPRISED ME AND CAME TO SEE THE GAME YESTERDAY. that was the best part of this weekend. game was a ton of bull shit. (sry but it was). then over friday i met one of the most(insert nice adjective here) person that ive meet in a long time. i think im starting to get over what i havent been able to get over for a year. :) PACKERS WIN

And this, is nice. And flattering. And i just wanna know,
Because i've changed a LOT since freshmen year.
1.7 years of love.
Yes, i still love him.
But if i;m the person who continues to date just because
I've always done it, then how will i know anything?
I'm not looking for new love, just some new expereinces.
In a good way. New friendships.
And, i just don't want this time to slip past me.
And, this is what's up.