Well what'm i gonna do?

I just, give up.
Musical drain all my sleep time and energy.
You wanna give up? You're not the only one
And i can't fight right now.
I swear, i really am tired.
I don't hold it against you and we're still friends.
You know, i could go off on you,
But i need you as a friend.
I know i don't try, but i can't right now.
I've never slept in class.
But these last two weeks i've taked to
Hurting myself to stay awake. :\
And this kid.
He got sent to Iowa to live with the good
Morman family because he got caught smmoking
in Utah. He's in 2 of my classes.
Last week he started texting me.
In my defense, he was nice when i gave him my number.
Then he asked me to a rave. Did i mention his hardcoreness?
He likes me style. O.o
Luckily, the rave was musical night.
THen, he asked me to the new HP movie.
As a double date with his cousin and his gf.
Awkward? yahhhhhhh.
Then he sent me a pic. AGAIN AWKARD.
Of his face, thanks. but still.
I told him i couldn't send one back.
"Aww well i thought i'd ask since you're way pretty".
Flattery is nice, but you're kinda creepy.
We've been talking since some.
He wants to hang out.
I'm 'busy'.
I like the attention and i get nervous when i see him.
But, he's not right for me at all.
And, he adds to the stress.
And, BJS and i don't talk.
Is it a coinicidence he had to do laundry when i IMed him?
And AJZ i can just forget about i guess.
Break my ass. This is a break up and i'm pissed.
And i said fuck in math today.
I don't know what i'm doing of who i am.
But whatever.
And if tomorrownight anything brings me down,
I'll blow up. I will. So don't cross my path.
I've gotten less than 6 hours of sleep a night this week.
I usually get 7 or 8 a night.
And everything happening at once.
So wahtever. It's now.
I'm here.
I miss him but i'm over it.
Except not really.
I wish he'd stop talking to me.
Why am i so nice?
I wish life was simple.