13 Little Blue Envelops.

I just finished reading this book.
It was really good but, i feel lost.
I get so caught up in reading books it all
Feels so real to me.
This book didn't have a clear ending.
Or a hinting of what she would do.
It just, ended.
It had closure but, did it really?
And yes, i know it is just a silly book but still.
Did she find love or did she leave it all behind? :/
I feel so lost.

Yesterday, alex came to my solo.
The only waverly person to.
Because i didn't want people to,
So i didn't tell them.
I was a bit suprised when i walked in he was there.
I still don't know how i feel about him.
I think he's getting the hint though...

That is how i feel about everything.
I just don't know. Still.
Tomorrow i go to allstate to cheer on my best friend.
But, at the same time, i'm worried.
I remember being like she is with that brandon guy from uni.
I don't want her to get hurt like i did.
(Because as we all know now, he's a giant jerk :P )

Seeing you yesterday, i felt nothing.
Are you happy now?
I pass you and i dont' even remember you were once my
Best friend.
When left to my own devices i've done just fine.
I have other friends, i'll be ok.
I hope you will be, too.
And just so it's not a total shock,
I bought tickets to see the jville musical (and dinner..)
I still have friends at that school that are in it.
I'm going Friday...I'm sure you'll do great. :)

I've decided to take the AP Exam.
Not until i decided to spend all that money did i realize.
I know nothing about our government.
Anyone who knows anything should help me out. :)
Hint...hint.... :)

Well....today is sunday.
I hope you are all doing good.
If you still read this, props to you.
I mainly post to record how i feel anymore.
But none-the-less, enjoy your day! :)