Dreams.

Ever since that first night of state baskatball
On tuesday, i've been texting him a lot.
We've texted daily since i got his number.
But ever since tuesday, i've been having dreams.
And he is always in them!
Lasts nights was no exception.
They lost the state championship by
TWO POINTS! But it was an amazing game and
I think they are winners still.
(Because i kinda got into caring about basketball).
They were coming home from the game but i was so tired
I just couldn't stay up to text him.
So i went to bed.
I dreamed we were all at the Jr. High
At a welcome back party for the team.
I was avoiding going to find him because i was nervous
About seeing him, but i eventually went looking for him.
Sadly, the team was already in the 'locker room'.
It was weird. All i wanted to do was see him.
It's how i feel in real life too.
I've never hugged him in real life.
But i find myself doing it in dreams.
And wanting to in life.

And while we're on the subject.
I basically had ajz say he missed my last night.
And i said i didn't know what i wanted right now.
All i know is i don't want him anymore.
He's a bad person. I still feel motherly
Protective over him, but not much else.
I was freaking out when he texted me
"So, i miss you".
But then the literal boy of my dreams texted me.
I got instantly happier.
And despite things people say about him,
People still want me to date him.
And, for now, i just want to see him.
And hug him. :)
We'll find out tomorrow......... :D