Ring in the new year solo..

Yeah.
I've been trying to do something for New Years.
This morning, i learned why everyone is skirting
Around me with plans.
There's a party i wasn't invited to.
And...my sister was invited...?
But he's in my grade.
In my classes.
What the fuck?
She said i could go in her place.
Like that wouldn't be awkward.
Now i just want to sit home alone.
I know i'm weird.
Really different.
And very obnoxious.
But really?
Really?
My sister?
And not me?
I know we don't talk that much,
Bur she's been gone for months.
I mean..come on.
Last year i didn't get to be with Ajz
For new years and i thought that was horrible.
I think being a lone might just top that.
Yeah, i'm dwelling on it.
But i just don't care anymore.
No one else included me in their plans.
Maybe i'll go call some to see.
But...
Just so you know.
This really, really, hurts.
My sister isn't even going.
But..at least she got invited..