What don't you understand?

I'm still in love with him.
There i said it.
I don't want to be.
He's bad. For me. For everyone.
But i spent to long protecting and making him better.
And i miss it.
I miss having someone to have.
And..i'm afraid i'll do things i shouldn't.
Like hang out with him again.
And i'm scared.
But i want to see him.
But i shouldn't.

Today someone asked me what would make my world perfect.
"If Andrew didn't lie. But we all know that won't happen".
:/